Last year I told a developer in my team to resign or I will terminate his job as his performance was not up to mark.

I was working as a manager in an IT company and there was a software developer who was not performing well.

He was taking a lot of leaves, he always looked sad and zoned out in his dreams. Whenever I used to question his work, his answers were always confusing..

In my feedback meetings with him, I asked for reasons behind his bad performance. And he came up with the best of excuses in the world, that he doesn’t feel good about anything around him, can’t focus on anything, and is not able to sleep properly nowadays.

He was almost sounding like my wife, as she used to tell me the same thing.

I exactly knew this was nothing but he is not being serious about his life, his office work and his responsibilities. I involved my management team and they approved his termination.

Now recently from last 1 month, something strange is happening with me. I couldn’t sleep, random thoughts keep coming in my head that I couldn’t control. At times I am in the best of my moods, but then suddenly I will start feeling sad and my heart will start beating high. I keep sitting in front of a computer and fail to focus on work.

Today my manager has kept feedback meeting with me as my performance is not up to mark according to him.

The END.

Rakesh Kalra

Hello, I am Rakesh Kalra. I have more than 15 years of experience working on IT projects, where I have worked on varied complexity of projects and at different levels of roles. I have tried starting my own startups, 3 of those though none of it were successful but gained so much knowledge about business, customers, and the digital world. I love to travel, spend time with my family, and read self-development books.


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